A Light

It was like a light had burst in on the darkness
It was there so suddenly
I did not expect it
After years of darkness
And gloom
A light
Where is coming from?
Why now?
It’s been said that it would hit
When you least expect it to
So here I am
After so much time
Feeling lost
destitute
isolated
apprehensive
Now a light
Do I choose to accept it?
Should I turn and go back
Back to that place I have been
For so long?
Or do I take this gift
I have been given another chance
A chance to breathe
To smile
To laugh and love
To hurt and feel
And cry and dream
But do I want all that?
I have been in a place with nothingness
For so long
No misery
No hurt
No happy
No joy
No laughter or love
Just me
Existing being a part of a place
Now I have to choose to breathe again
Or go on in this place
It has almost become complacent
No one can hurt something
Already damaged
No worries about laughter
Turning to tearsneither are there
But to feel again
To laugh again
And feel the laughter
I guess you have to
You have to have both
Laughter and pain
Love and sorrow
But the good will outweigh the bad
It has to
It will
You have to make it that way
Life is a gift
Not an existence
We exist in a life that we make
We make it happy and full of love
We make it joyful and take away pain
So I will accept this light
I will carry it
In my heart
And in my soul
And share it
And let it grow
A light to guide me
And to make my happiness
Grow like a seed
With the help of the sun