I will be

I will be there when the wind blows.
I will be there when the rain falls.
After all the years that have gone by
And all the tears that fell
And all the laughter shared
I will be there
When the world stops turning

I will be there when the waves crash
I will be there when the snow drifts
Sunrise after sunrise
And sunset after sunset
I will be there
When the silence sets in

I will be there to hear the joy
I will be there to comfort sorrow
After babies are grown
And have babies of their own
I will be there
When it’s only you and me

I will be there to hold your hand
I will be there to kiss your face
I will be there to touch your skin
I will be there to hold you close
After all the years go by
One after one
I will be there
Until the end.

In The Alley

Meet me in the alley. You know the one. You know I will be there waiting when the sky opens. There will be no words. They are not necessary. Not now and they won’t be after either. Just you and me and the passion that there is. My hands in yours. Reaching out to touch to feel just one time. The rain pours down. I feel it burn my skin. Your lips press against mine. They follow the line of my neck. You are behind me now. Your lips behind my ear. I feel your breath. Our hearts pounding to the same melody in our minds. Touch me like you want to be touched. Feel me like I need to be felt. Reach inside and know that this is one time here and now and it has to be enough to remember. Enough to remember forever so that we may come back without each other to this place. This place with the passion that is forbidden never allowed to surface except here in this alley in the rain in the night in my dream. When I wake, I want to remember. Make me remember.

I'm Sorry

I let the feelings take hold
The fun the laughter
The feeling
It was so nice
It swept me away
Then I crossed the line
You are my friend
And that is all
I knew that
But I crossed the line
I’m sorry

I smiled
And so did you
I laughed
You smiled again
The thoughts
They swirled
Around in my head
You have a love
As do I
I crossed the line
I’m sorry

You have
This ability
To get me
To open my heart
And my mind
And my soul
I trust you
With all of them
Forever you will be
My friend
My confidante
I crossed the line
I’m sorry.

Thank you
Again and again
For being there
When I needed you
I hope someday
I can be there too
As your friend
Your confidante
To hear your thoughts
And your dreams
As your friend
Forever
I am sorry.

The Reality Inspiration

An inspiration of sorts
It comes in like a flash
Of lightning
Out of nowhere there it is
I found it today
Or I should say
It found me
It grabbed me
It made me feel
I wrote it down
And the words just flowed
What was it
And where is it from?
Did someone inspire
Or does this come from within?
Does it wait for the right time
And then grab my attention
Like a beautiful smile?
It feels like a beautiful smile
You know the kind
The one that makes you smile?
You see it and you know
You feel it
And know it is real
So I felt it today
The reality
And I wrote it down
So here it is

A Light

It was like a light had burst in on the darkness
It was there so suddenly
I did not expect it
After years of darkness
And gloom
A light
Where is coming from?
Why now?
It’s been said that it would hit
When you least expect it to
So here I am
After so much time
Feeling lost
destitute
isolated
apprehensive
Now a light
Do I choose to accept it?
Should I turn and go back
Back to that place I have been
For so long?
Or do I take this gift
I have been given another chance
A chance to breathe
To smile
To laugh and love
To hurt and feel
And cry and dream
But do I want all that?
I have been in a place with nothingness
For so long
No misery
No hurt
No happy
No joy
No laughter or love
Just me
Existing being a part of a place
Now I have to choose to breathe again
Or go on in this place
It has almost become complacent
No one can hurt something
Already damaged
No worries about laughter
Turning to tearsneither are there
But to feel again
To laugh again
And feel the laughter
I guess you have to
You have to have both
Laughter and pain
Love and sorrow
But the good will outweigh the bad
It has to
It will
You have to make it that way
Life is a gift
Not an existence
We exist in a life that we make
We make it happy and full of love
We make it joyful and take away pain
So I will accept this light
I will carry it
In my heart
And in my soul
And share it
And let it grow
A light to guide me
And to make my happiness
Grow like a seed
With the help of the sun

I thank you . . .

You grabbed me. Somehow you were able to entice me with your way. I was weak, naïve, unknowing. I wanted so desperately to be wanted. You wanted me. I wanted to feel the desire. I desired you. I wanted to hear I was beautiful. You told me everyday. I wanted to be loved. That was the one thing you couldn’t do. All I asked was you try. You couldn’t do that either. You didn’t think you should have to try. It should just happen. I thought that myself for a very long time. The table had turned on me. I learned from you that you do have to work. But in the meantime I lost my heart. And then you took it so carelessly and broke it. It broke like never before. Why? I honestly don’t know. You didn’t have it for long. But you had the whole thing in your hands and you dropped it from a thousand stories up. And it broke that fast. To find all the pieces now will take a tremendous amount of work. But I am finding them. One by one. I realized that it is what you do. You swept me away. I let you. If it were now, it would never happen because I know. I’m aware. I see you in a light that was not there before. You planned what you did. You knew how to hurt. And you did it very well. But I have to thank you. Because without you I would not be where I am now. I am strong. I am in love. I laugh. I still cry, but the tears dry faster now. They don’t leave a mark anymore. Not like you. You left a mark on my heart that will always be there. A reminder. A reminder that I can be beautiful without you. I can feel love without pain. I can desire anything and have it too. So thank you for breaking my heart. I am eternally grateful for the pain because the pain gave me strength. And I will use that strength forever to find my happiness without you.

Snow

Snow falling
Wind blowing
Fires glowing
Hands holding
Lips are wet
Minds are racing
Words are whispered
Fingers tracing
Body heat
Is on the rise
A touch
Comes as a surprise
A feeling
It cuts right through
I think you know
What I want to do
Words unspoken
Hearts would be broken
You let me go
I face the snow
I stop to look back
The windows are black
Should I go
Should I stay
I get to the door
You are there to say
You have to go
I want to say no
But I know in my heart
We cannot start
A kiss on the cheek
You taste the tear
You wish you could take
Away all the fears
But for now I must go
I will face the snow
With a tear in my eye
And a love on my mind
I say goodbye